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An ~artistic~ shot from my hotel.
Hi all. I’m back from KL.
My stay there was alright. The hotel staff, we stayed at Hotel Equatorial, were friendly and helpful. They pretty much obliged to our every request. One of the bath towels smelt slightly sour on one night though but that’s ok.
Anyway, with Ade, my brother, left in KL to study, I’ve been feeling quite pensive. I remember how I used to be irritated with him because he made me adhere to a set of rather strict rules. An example is no internet except on weekends. When I’m allowed to use the internet, I’ll only have like 5 – 7 hours per day. Of course being the ~rebellious teenager~ that I am, I’ll be online for more than 7 hours. And of course he’ll reprimand me and I’ll be sulky with him.
There was also once when I was in my last year in primary school and I had to take my PSLE [It's a national exam] at the end of the year. To prevent me from using the computer, he actually took away my mouse! I was furious with him. I mean, he was allowed to use the computer whenever and however long he wanted and I wasn’t? Where was the fairness in that? Mum explained to me that he could use the computer whenever and however long he wanted because he had finished his national exams and was in polytechnic. I still found it unfair though.
Now that I’m older and more mature [haaa], I see things in a different light and I suppose I’m not as petty as I was a couple of years ago. I’m also grateful that Ade limited my internet use and whatnot because if he didn’t, I would’ve done quite terribly for my primary school and secondary 4 national exams.
I’m not the sort who writes entries about my relationship with my family and friends but it’s an exception today. It’s a special time for me. My brother’s left home to study in Malaysia and my other brother’s left home ages ago to live with my aunt, work as a bartender, and experience freedom and bachelorhood. It’s just my parents and I now.
Apart from slight changes in my family, I’m also experiencing changes in my social life. No longer am I going out to town with my school friends and trying to be all grown up. I’m busy working at my uncle’s art gallery, even on the weekends. Next year, I’ll be enrolling in polytechnic and for sure my secondary school friends won’t be with me. I’ll be in uncharted territories and I’ll have to make new friends, work with new people. It’ll all be new.
I used to believe in best friends forever and staying friends with the same people until the end of time when I was a kid. But after a few years, I realise that BFFs aren’t all that fantastic. I mean, why continue being friends with someone if the relationship has turned sour? I really don’t see the point of it. You can try to fix the relationship but if it can’t be restored, then they might as well become acquaintances or sever ties entirely. It’s better, in my opinion, to make lots of friends from different backgrounds, share some lovely moments with them and then make more friends. That’s better than being in a miserable relationship with a few friends for a long time anyway.
I’m not saying that we shouldn’t have best friends but just don’t be let down when your best friend doesn’t behave like a best friend anymore. They are human, after all, and they’re bound to get bored sooner or later. We all hope that it’s later rather than sooner but hey, sometimes it just doesn’t work that way.
Ok, that’s enough sentimental thoughts. I really don’t like writing about this, I prefer writing about other things like my ambitions, my weird dreams at night and lots of other random stuff. It’ll be a long time until I write another post like this and by then, I’m hoping I’ll accomplish lots of things and be a better person in many ways.
TL;DR: My bro’s studying in university in KL, I’m the only child left living in this home, I’ve experienced rather major changes in my life and I’ll be experiencing more and I don’t usually write sappy entries. The end.
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